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7th Blog

Herrrroooooo,
sooooo weighed in this am at 127.5!!!!!! HOWEVER aunt flo came to visit today! STUPID BITCH! hahah only good thing about her coming around is the fact that ill most likely be down a larger amt by the time she leaves cause of all the extra bloating etc. blahhhhhh i just hope i dont gain PLEASE GOD DONT LET ME GAIN! didnt eat today YAY just had dinner, it was tacos ugggghhhhhh! had 3 I KNOW HEY FATTTY! BUT I PURGED! i hope i get down to 120 by the birthday part on dec 17!!!! PRAY FOR MEEEEEEE!!!!! xoxox SKINNNNYYYYY THOUUUUGGGHHHTTSSSSS

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6th Blog

Well today wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i woke up this morning and weighed in at 129.5 lbs WOOHHHOOOOO  the 20's have always been so sweet!.... only thing is as most of u would know..... its just not good enuff anymore to just "be" in the 20's. i need to get lower and i need to get there NOW!!!

Didn't eat all day!!! wohoooo than had supper. my boyfriend wanted to go to tokyo express and it sux cuz i can binge like a mother fucker on that shit hahahah BUT I DIDNT i ate perhaps a quarter of it AND purged! so im actually not feeling to bad about today and have high hopes for tomorrow! i could do this without my bestie DA! i stay strong for US :) xoxoxox love u <3

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5th Blog

so yesterday/lastnight was just terrible i felt so stupid and fat and like a failure i just ate whatever i wanted all day! i purged except for my last meal but i was still 5 over this am however ive been dropping steadly again throughout the day, had a few peices of chicken to make my tummy stfu, i dont get cals from liquids usually cuz im not a big coffee person im more into water, so im okay with the few bits of chicken i had, perhaps itll even help. All i hafta do now is get thro dinner, i always have a tough time with dinner, i usually purge after but im always so hungry i just wanna eat n eat n eat n eat but i know i wont be able to get it ALLLL out so i reli gotta watch myself i did so well today i hope the scale shows it. trying to stay strong to get skinnnyyyyy :)
love u sister nikki xoxxo <3

4th Blog

UGGGGGGHHHHHHH. i feel so unworthy and terrible right now! i cant believe how bad i failed yesterday. i had half a mcfatty burger 3 nuggets and some iced tea! wtf is wrong with me AND i didnt purge is like wtf i don't understand my thought process at that time.... why would i do that :( than i made homemade healthy chicken noodle soup, only thing unhealthy in it was the pasta.... so of course me thinking awe whatever its healthy so what did i do acted like a fat ass and ate TWO FUCKING BOWLS of the stuff! oh and guess what... didn't purge cuz apparently i subconsciously i wanna be a fatty for the rest of my life! ughhhhhh OOOOH and than at about 11:30 AT NIGHT i decided to made a hot chicken sandwhich with left over chicken and stuffing!!!!! omfg omfg omfg omfg i actually purged that tho i felt soooooooo guilty!!! i sseriously wanna roll into a ball and die i weighed and i was almost 136....wtf..... why cant i be great....why cant i be worthy of beauty? im so scared right now like 136!!!!! im pretty much starting alll fucking over again..... seriously hate myself I NEEEEEDDD TO BE STRONGER! I WILL BE STRONGER! TODAY WILL BE A BETTER DAY!!! and tomorrow will be full of results :)

3rd Blog

SOOOOOO.... i weighed in this morning at 131 lbs SO IMPRESSED almost ten lbs in like a week n a half AAAANNNDDDD i was a stupid fat failure and ate subway and didnt purge but i think my body perfers having SOME food than to nothing..... im noticing if i just dont eat i dont lose as quick.....WTF RIGHT!?

im noticing my colour bones sticking out more, my hip bones sticking out more AND EVEN my knees seems bony well ER hahaha anyways i gotta confess..... i had mcFAT (mcdonalds) but no fries 3 chicken nuggets n half a burger :( i know  i know ugh fat fat fat fat fat fat fat!!!!!! blah oh well we'll see what tomorrow brings ...im making healthy home made chicken noodle soup with small noodles. easy to throw up and healthy :) WISH ME LUCK 20'S HERE I COME!!!!

2nd Blog

So i woke up this morning the same as yesterday FML than again i did eat dinner and DIDNT purge cuz i had 5 friends over. im such a lazy fat fat fauilure! WHY THE FUCK didnt i purge or just not eat at all no one woulda noticed. ugh i need to lose 3 lbs now cuz i didnt lose my 2 yesterday. a lb a day keeps me saine!!!! no food today only liquids ill get my min cals from those ugh hate my FAT life :'( ill never be good enuff :(

November 10th, 1st Blog

Well this is the first time i've felt worth enuff to have an Ana blog and have an acct on an Ana website. I've recently gone down in weight so i thought why not now to keep my thinspiration going! last week i kept weighing in at 140lbs for MONTHS im FINALLY starting to go down again, i weighed this morning and came in at 132lbs.... its good....but its not good enuff!
I'm terrified for tonight tooo :( i have some friends coming over for DINNER of all things DINNER! how am i supposed to get up and purge half way thro dinner!? i cant! im gonna have to wait until they leave omg im getting anxiety thinking about it just now. i shoulda said no i shoulda never let anyone come over for DINNER none the less! ugh im so scared, i guess ill do my best weight tomorrow and well seeeee. thinking thin! xox